NOV 11TH 2026 9:16PM CET
MOOD: happy. simple as that
i played pony town with my partner a bit. it was really fun! we just hung out and felt cute ^_^ i love that game.
attaching our ponysonas on there :3
NOV 9TH 2026 8:20PM CET
MOOD: excited as FUUUUUUUUCK!!!!
i feel so incredibly joyous right now!
i'm getting back into my little pony. i made a ponysona and my partner decided to make one too so we can match :"D its so sweet it melts my heart.
we're actually watching jojo's bizarre adventure right now! i'm writing this during a little break hehehehe >:3 i need to go back to coding this site.
i have been inactive for months, im so sorry about that... ive been focused on other stuff. i have these phases where i do one thing intensively for a week or more and
then i randomly switch to another passion and the cycle repeats. i dont really control the phases... i have a couple of phase types; the art phase, the music production phase, the sims phase, the game development phase and the site coding phase.
sometimes they flow smoothly, sometimes theres a gap where i dont feel like doing anything. i had a gap like that recently and my partner got worried thinking i might be depressed, which i understand. but i dont call that state anhedonia, just a transition
between interest phases. now i might be somewhere between art and coding, i think. i finished an album which is releasing in 4 days (november 13th).
speaking of that album, i had fun making the songs, but i was forced to not only mute the sampled vocals on some songs, but also straight up scrap a song because of a different sample... i hate copyright so fucking much but i wont be getting into that.
the album was made to be 13 tracks, but i had to cut it down to 12. very unsatisfying to me who considers 13 a lucky number.
at least now it should hopefully be able to be distributed with no further issues. i hope so at least. if i have to submit it for distribution again, for the 4th time, i might cry.
anyway, life's been good to me despite that. i bought a new studded belt which should be arriving tomorrow. i cant wait to try it on! i had 2 studded belts, but one straight up broke, tearing in half out of wear, and the newer one is too short.
my hips are too wide for it so it sits on my waist. the thing is, i like lower-rise jeans, so this means i cannot wear that belt with my favorite pairs of pants. however, the one i bought is longer than the measurement of my hips, so it should fit perfectly!
i swear, knowing your measurements is a godsend if you buy clothes etc. online. you dont have to guess based on sizes, most clothes have their measurements listed in cm or inches. hell yeah.
JUN 2ND 2026 6:01PM CET
MOOD: a little sleepy
things been going well. working on the website again, switched from neocities to nekoweb...
i like it here. i like everything.
id like to start making shit in flash again. this time actual animations and games. i wanna make a dress up game...
its funny. as a kid i HATED dress up games, i found them incredibly boring. now i spend most of my time in games
doing character customization. like in the sims.
MAY 8TH 2026 10:33PM CET
MOOD: happy
practiced way longer today, enjoyed it a lot!
i learned 2 more chords, E major and E minor. i also started experimenting with modifying chords and making up little melodies!
i can also now switch between A and D 29-34 times per minute. i feel great.
i did try to play with a metronome but the clicks were just slipping away from me. i need to work on my rhythm. :']
MAY 7TH 2026 8:38PM CET
MOOD: still somehow motivated!
i did my first session of guitar practice today! like 3 hours maybe lol, going over the first steps. im excited to keep going.
somehow i dont feel like giving up. actually the opposite. i cant wait to practice again! i can play the A and D chords and switch between them
18 to 22 times per minute. i aim for 30 times per minute. ill keep going until i get there!
MAY 6TH 2026 11:56PM CET
MOOD: determined
you know what? fuck it. ill pick up my guitar and start learning.
ive had this damn thing since i was 14 and i feel like its about time i take it seriously.
i remember before getting it i just felt this longing for it. i felt like i couldnt breathe if i didnt have one. kind of funny looking back on that
since i havent touched the thing in like half a decade. but im putting an end to that.
i made a song with some guitar samples and the longing came back. this is my moment. this year is great and i can make it even greater by putting my mind to it.
MAY 4TH 2026 7:47PM CET
MOOD: happyyyyy :D :D :D :D :D :D
first fucking blog entry SHEEEEEEEEEESH.
so, what do i even write about...... lifes been going great for me.
i feel like 2026 is my year, everything keeps going exactly right and it makes me hopeful.
for example, ill be getting a new pc, ill be meeting one of my long time online friends, i got my dream keitai, i might see my partner irl before september...
im very excited about whats to come. i love my life.